the narrow road

It was a day where I started out with excitement….but at the end of the day, after a series of events, I have cried more than I have cried in the entire year put together. Cried so much till my head aches. Cried so much till too exhausted to think. Cried whilst driving. Cried whilst parking. At the end of the tears, there will be breakthru. After the rains during the time of Noah, it took a long time before the ark came back to the ground. And took a while yet before the rainbow came out.

It will take time. But this ark will be grounded. This ark will experience new life. This ark will encounter the rainbow promises of the Lord come to pass.
I know I am loved. I know that as I sow in tears, truly truly I will reap in joy! Wow!
So, I will lift my head up. I will rest under the shadows of His wings. Tomorrow I will rise up on wings of eagles. Tomorrow I will soar!

The past two weeks have seen at least 10 funerals in our church all involving the senior generations in our church. Some were past leaders, parents or grandparents of church members. I myself was not spared as my own uncle went home to the Lord. At a grand age of 85. (yes he was this old as he was 17 years older than his wife, my aunt). I was never close to this uncle because he was the strong silent type. But my aunt and her kids were the closest to my mum and us. The cousins were about the same age and we spent every school holiday together with them over the year end break. What havoc we had. Now most are married with kids of their own yet the bond is still there. I feel their pain of losing a dad.
Thankfully my mother had the chance to lead him in a sinners’ prayer 2 months prior and again 2 weeks ago. I believe uncle is in heaven, fully sighted, able bodied and fit as a fiddle. I am glad I made the trip down to JB to be with them.
As usual, my family functions always undercurrents and this was no different. My heart yearns for the day where all bitterness, envy, slander will be gone and replaced by genuine love of Jesus. I will pray that they will only end their race when they have all found Jesus!
Life is so precious..let’s live a life with no regrets. Spend time with ALL your loved ones, making every effort to be a blessing.